I have a photograph that sits on my desk. It was taken the fall that we found out my mother had stage IV breast cancer. The fall foliage was absolutely stunning that year, and her wish was to get a great family picture while all of us were together that weekend. Those pictures that we … Continue reading #117 Photographs.
Tag: loss
#106 Sincere Thanks.
I wrote about the handkerchief that was special ordered for my brother's wedding, and I now finally have a picture to share. Words cannot express how thankful I am for this beautiful handkerchief. I know this was not an easy undertaking, especially on such short notice, but the quality and the special care that was … Continue reading #106 Sincere Thanks.
#89 Mom’s Letter.
My dad recently asked me to help him with a gift for my brother for his upcoming wedding. He had initially planned to use part of my mother's wedding dress to make handkerchiefs for my brother to wear on his wedding day, but once the wedding dress was taken out of storage, my dad found … Continue reading #89 Mom’s Letter.
#79 Coco.
There are some very hard truths that I have learned after I lost my mom. The most important being that sometimes even your closest friends and family members will not know what to do or say, and sometimes it can be downright hurtful when you are knee deep in grief. It is okay to talk … Continue reading #79 Coco.
#30 My Dad’s New Friend.
It is a strange concept to think about your dad dating someone new. My dad is visiting with our family this week, and he brought his girlfriend with him. I knew he had been dating someone for the last several months, and I knew from what he had told me that things were getting serious. … Continue reading #30 My Dad’s New Friend.
#14 Free.
There is a necklace that I wear almost every day, and across the gold bar, the word “free” is etched. One of my favorite memories of my Mom in her final days includes this very word, and I wear it in memory of her. My mom fought breast cancer on and off for eight long … Continue reading #14 Free.
#6 Cardinals.
A dear friend told me shortly after my mom passed away that cardinals are a symbol of a loved one’s spirit nearby. I promise you, I have never seen so many cardinals in my life until my mom passed away. In the weeks before our little Nathan was born, I started aching for my mom … Continue reading #6 Cardinals.
#5 Nana in Space.
Over the last month or two, Will has been perseverating over Nana’s death. It started one day when he picked up a picture frame of our family. The photo was taken at the very last trip we took before my mom passed away, on the front porch of the lake house that we had rented. … Continue reading #5 Nana in Space.
#2 Homesick.
Grief can feel like a homesickness. I find myself yearning to go home, to be in my house where my mom used to live, to hear her laugh and be with her again. Then I am once again reminded that even if I could get home in that very moment, the things that I yearn … Continue reading #2 Homesick.
#1 The First One.
This idea all started with a picture. I opened my TimeHop, and the pain hit me like a bolt of lightning. I am so grateful for this picture, yet so heartbroken. This photo was taken right before we discovered that mom’s cancer had spread to her brain, right before she entered hospice care. It … Continue reading #1 The First One.
a life well loved 