Before I lost my mom, before I knew her cancer would return and our days would be numbered, before all of the heartache and loss, I knew a handful of girls that had lost their mother early on in life. Every time a picture would be posted on a social media feed, I would think … Continue reading #133 The Answer.
I really cannot handle shopping in baby stores. I recently helped host a baby shower for a dear friend in my office, and I needed to run to the baby store to shop for her gift. When I am with my husband and my kids, I have a distraction. Today, however, I did not have … Continue reading #109 Triggers.
I wrote about the handkerchief that was special ordered for my brother's wedding, and I now finally have a picture to share. Words cannot express how thankful I am for this beautiful handkerchief. I know this was not an easy undertaking, especially on such short notice, but the quality and the special care that was … Continue reading #106 Sincere Thanks.
There are some very hard truths that I have learned after I lost my mom. The most important being that sometimes even your closest friends and family members will not know what to do or say, and sometimes it can be downright hurtful when you are knee deep in grief. It is okay to talk … Continue reading #79 Coco.
Happy Birthday to this pretty lady today. I miss your smile, I miss your laughter, and your overall zest for life. I came across these old photos of my mom and Uncle Doug, and I just love them so. They capture their sweet personalities so perfectly. I hope you are having a grand old time … Continue reading #77 Happy Birthday, Mama.
Having daily conversations with my mom is the thing I miss most about her being gone. We talked every day on the phone, sometimes twice a day. We talked about everything. I never made a major life decision without my mother's input. She was my person. Not only was she my mom but she was … Continue reading #54 Talks with Mom.
We visited my mother's grave today. I have only gotten to see it twice since she passed away; one of the hardships of living far away. The last time I visited, it was an absolute disaster. Will was not quite three at the time and not feeling well. I was really hoping to see her … Continue reading #43 Sweet Baby Nate.
During my dad’s visit with us a few weeks ago, he shared the news that he and his girlfriend would be getting married some time in the near future. I have deleted and re-written this entry several times. It’s been hard to find the words to express the millions of thoughts that have been racing … Continue reading #38 It’s Ok to Not be Ok Right Now.
May and October, two of the most beautiful months of the year, and I struggle through both. Without warning, I will find myself enter into this terrible funk that I cannot shake. In May, it starts around Mother's Day, and doesn't end until the 23rd, the day my mom died. October is the month of … Continue reading #33 May & October.
Today marks two years since my mom has passed away. As a daughter, with the close bond that I had with my mother, losing her at a young age was one of the most difficult things I will endure in my lifetime. I understand that while I was a grown woman - she was there … Continue reading #29 Two years today.