Before I lost my mom, before I knew her cancer would return and our days would be numbered, before all of the heartache and loss, I knew a handful of girls that had lost their mother early on in life. Every time a picture would be posted on a social media feed, I would think … Continue reading #133 The Answer.
I have a photograph that sits on my desk. It was taken the fall that we found out my mother had stage IV breast cancer. The fall foliage was absolutely stunning that year, and her wish was to get a great family picture while all of us were together that weekend. Those pictures that we … Continue reading #117 Photographs.
I really cannot handle shopping in baby stores. I recently helped host a baby shower for a dear friend in my office, and I needed to run to the baby store to shop for her gift. When I am with my husband and my kids, I have a distraction. Today, however, I did not have … Continue reading #109 Triggers.
There are only a handful of times that I recall crying after my mom passed away. It is something that has been bothering me for the last two years. I want to cry; I can feel it building up inside of my chest. The sadness, the angst, all of those emotions I have felt have … Continue reading #93 Good Tears.
My dad recently asked me to help him with a gift for my brother for his upcoming wedding. He had initially planned to use part of my mother's wedding dress to make handkerchiefs for my brother to wear on his wedding day, but once the wedding dress was taken out of storage, my dad found … Continue reading #89 Mom’s Letter.
There are some very hard truths that I have learned after I lost my mom. The most important being that sometimes even your closest friends and family members will not know what to do or say, and sometimes it can be downright hurtful when you are knee deep in grief. It is okay to talk … Continue reading #79 Coco.
Happy Birthday to this pretty lady today. I miss your smile, I miss your laughter, and your overall zest for life. I came across these old photos of my mom and Uncle Doug, and I just love them so. They capture their sweet personalities so perfectly. I hope you are having a grand old time … Continue reading #77 Happy Birthday, Mama.
Having daily conversations with my mom is the thing I miss most about her being gone. We talked every day on the phone, sometimes twice a day. We talked about everything. I never made a major life decision without my mother's input. She was my person. Not only was she my mom but she was … Continue reading #54 Talks with Mom.
We visited my mother's grave today. I have only gotten to see it twice since she passed away; one of the hardships of living far away. The last time I visited, it was an absolute disaster. Will was not quite three at the time and not feeling well. I was really hoping to see her … Continue reading #43 Sweet Baby Nate.
During my dad’s visit with us a few weeks ago, he shared the news that he and his girlfriend would be getting married some time in the near future. I have deleted and re-written this entry several times. It’s been hard to find the words to express the millions of thoughts that have been racing … Continue reading #38 It’s Ok to Not be Ok Right Now.