During my dad’s visit with us a few weeks ago, he shared the news that he and his girlfriend would be getting married some time in the near future. I have deleted and re-written this entry several times. It’s been hard to find the words to express the millions of thoughts that have been racing … Continue reading #38 It’s Ok to Not be Ok Right Now.
Today marks two years since my mom has passed away. As a daughter, with the close bond that I had with my mother, losing her at a young age was one of the most difficult things I will endure in my lifetime. I understand that while I was a grown woman - she was there … Continue reading #29 Two years today.
I just finished listening to the It's Okay to Laugh: (Crying is Cool Too) audio book by Nora McInerny Purmort, and I absolutely loved it. I started following her podcast a few weeks ago - Terrible, Thanks for Asking - and I was curious to learn more about this person who has been through so much, yet has … Continue reading #27 Help Me, Mom.
I always wanted to have my kids three years apart. I don't know when that idea nestled itself into my brain, but I know that it was long before I had kids, got married, or had even met my husband. Three years apart, that was the plan. It's amazing to me the timing of the … Continue reading #25 Timing is Everything.
For those of us who have lost a mother, a grandmother, a child, or other significant woman in your life, Mother's Day can feel like a blessing and a curse. I am so grateful to be a mother to my two beautiful boys, and on this day I choose to acknowledge and celebrate that aspect … Continue reading # 22 Mother’s Day.
My mom worked at an elementary school for almost 25 years. Just after Mom passed away, the school designed a memorial garden in honor of her. When she worked there, she would volunteer her time weeding the garden beds and sprucing up the school. Because of budget cuts, the school could no longer afford to … Continue reading #16 Mom’s Garden.
There is a necklace that I wear almost every day, and across the gold bar, the word “free” is etched. One of my favorite memories of my Mom in her final days includes this very word, and I wear it in memory of her. My mom fought breast cancer on and off for eight long … Continue reading #14 Free.
Growing up, I was never a runner. I played sports, mostly soccer and basketball, and my idea of running back then was running towards a ball; running towards a goal. It wasn't until I moved down to Tennessee and I started putting on the newlywed weight that I decided to give running a try. I … Continue reading #13 Running.
A dear friend told me shortly after my mom passed away that cardinals are a symbol of a loved one’s spirit nearby. I promise you, I have never seen so many cardinals in my life until my mom passed away. In the weeks before our little Nathan was born, I started aching for my mom … Continue reading #6 Cardinals.
Over the last month or two, Will has been perseverating over Nana’s death. It started one day when he picked up a picture frame of our family. The photo was taken at the very last trip we took before my mom passed away, on the front porch of the lake house that we had rented. … Continue reading #5 Nana in Space.